Something I shouldn't have said.

[[[I have to, I have to say it. Even though it will get you both super pissed at me. It's not fair, its sooo not fair. Why am I left out of everything? Because I have Kaylin? Your right, I love Kaylin with all of my heart, and yes I want to be with her as much as possible. Alot of the time I don't have time, and i do work a lot. But why am I left out of everything? I hold it in every single time I see you guys do something, but the pain in my heart overrides everything. Sometimes i feel so freaking depressed about this, but theres nothing i can do, nothing i can really say..because the times we do hangout are amazing. You do a lot for me and I am completely blessed to have friends as amazing as you two have been to me. So thats why I hold it in, that's why I can't say anything, because i don't want to make you think I don't appreciate the things you do. Cause i do. You two hang out ALLL THE TIME. You go to movies, or go out to breakfast, go to see Kayleighs aunt, go to the store, hangout at eachothers house...everything. have you ever thought about inviting me? Am i that boring? Can one of you atleast ask if im busy or not? Do i say no that much to you? Your right, you both are not like me, I have grown up a lot, but i am still me, i still have a life, i can still go do something. I understand that sometimes we do stuff, a lot of the time i have to take kaylin, but babysitters are available... and when you invited me to christmas eve kayleigh, that was the best thing i could have asked for. I didnt need you to get me anything because you had already done that by inviting me. I dont know what else to say, besides im sorry for just now telling you this. Im just so hurt..i have absolutly no friends anymore because i'm a mom. idk...just think about it. you dont have to write me back..just think about it please. Enjoy your new years, i hope you both have a blast, and i hope we can start this new year out just a bit differently. ]]]


I had to say it..it hurts so bad that they ignore that im capable of joining them. i feel like giving up but how can i give up on the two best, only friends that i have.