How come....when you make a mistake in your past, it always follows you?
My first boyfriend/first time/ first love.... followed me for 6 years
My credit/eviction/bad rental history from 5 years ago...makes it impossible to rent/buy anything now.
My dropping out of college in 2011.... disqualifies me from any financial aid now..3 years later
Long story short.... It's like I have ruined my financial future, by stupid immature mistakes I made when I was 18/19.
I have learned so much, gained so much knowledge of credit, and money, and saving, and responsibility in the past 3 years, that I have had my whole life.
My mom never mentioned credit, my grandparents never informed me what was to come, didn't have my dad, and it's like no one told me what to do. I am so lost...I keep telling myself to give it all to the Lord, but there is so much to decide... do I file bankruptcy? I am about 12000 in debt, and I know that would never get paid if I don't file. I would have to start paying back 2 huge payments right away, all by myself, because Andrew is for sure filing bankruptcy. I have 3,000 in medical debt that I'm not even sure is accurate. Our savings are constantly fluctuating ....Andrew just bought a stupid hunting gun for 300 dollars, and doesn't even freaking realize, that in order to just try to find a nice home for rent, we are going to have to have at least a couple of months down. We are going to need money to put down on electric, and gas. It's like he doesn't get it.
I am so freaking lost, I just don't know how Jesus is going to unravel all of this. Will he continue to make me learn everything the hard way? Will he love me enough to provide me with a good life? I just want to know....I just want the answers. I need him to speak to me, to show me, to let me understand that he's not going to lead my life, like my moms. I have faith in Jesus...I just need the answers soon.
My first boyfriend/first time/ first love.... followed me for 6 years
My credit/eviction/bad rental history from 5 years ago...makes it impossible to rent/buy anything now.
My dropping out of college in 2011.... disqualifies me from any financial aid now..3 years later
Long story short.... It's like I have ruined my financial future, by stupid immature mistakes I made when I was 18/19.
I have learned so much, gained so much knowledge of credit, and money, and saving, and responsibility in the past 3 years, that I have had my whole life.
My mom never mentioned credit, my grandparents never informed me what was to come, didn't have my dad, and it's like no one told me what to do. I am so lost...I keep telling myself to give it all to the Lord, but there is so much to decide... do I file bankruptcy? I am about 12000 in debt, and I know that would never get paid if I don't file. I would have to start paying back 2 huge payments right away, all by myself, because Andrew is for sure filing bankruptcy. I have 3,000 in medical debt that I'm not even sure is accurate. Our savings are constantly fluctuating ....Andrew just bought a stupid hunting gun for 300 dollars, and doesn't even freaking realize, that in order to just try to find a nice home for rent, we are going to have to have at least a couple of months down. We are going to need money to put down on electric, and gas. It's like he doesn't get it.
I am so freaking lost, I just don't know how Jesus is going to unravel all of this. Will he continue to make me learn everything the hard way? Will he love me enough to provide me with a good life? I just want to know....I just want the answers. I need him to speak to me, to show me, to let me understand that he's not going to lead my life, like my moms. I have faith in Jesus...I just need the answers soon.
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