So Easter. First of all, don't go shopping at the last minute, and expecially don't ever go shopping with Andrew looking for Gift stuff. He complained the whole time how I look at each and every thing, and then while I was still trying to keep a budget, he criticized me of how much I spent when he threw in a few items himself.
Plus the lady didn't give me the sale price and charged me for full price. Let's just say I wasn't happy after I saw that receipt.
anyways .. I did manage to get Kaylin in her dress and I got two videos of that lovely smile while she found eggs and pulled them a part, not even wanting the yogurt melts and chocolate inside. She is so different, she surprises me with everything, not just the way she acts, but the way she does something. Like instead of eating the icing off a cookie, she will start taking out the chocolate chips inside the cookie, eat them, then poke at the icing and then eat the rest of the cookie. Just an example, but it makes me laugh. I love seeing the way she is starting to say a lot more words, hearing that little voice say uncle Aj and pickle or ( cule cule?) , makes me feel good inside. Like "yes! I'm still doing okay! she is a happy girl, she is healthy, and I am somewhat doing okay as a mom." that makes me feel better. Having people say how good she is, and what a happy girl she is, makes me know I am doing something right.
Now here comes the bad, Obviously Andrew and I are completely different. While I believe that she is fully capable of eating a combo, Andrew believes she is way to young and she can't eat that much, and that she will choke. I do believe it could happen, but that could happen if she eats a grape, or cracker too. I feel like he under estimates my parenting a crap load. It hurts me pretty bad, I am around her almost all of the time, I am usually always the one feeding her, bathing her and playing with her, so why does he feel like his words always matter. I am old enough, and mature enough to figure out what is good and bad for her, I have grown up so much and I'm starting to see who I am, and what I need to get done, so why does he treat me like I am such a kid at this? 21 isn't that young. We had a neighbor come over to play with chalk with Kaylin, she is 10. She told me I am young, she even asked me what high school I went too. Oh boy, now that made me feel crappy. Yes I am young, I do believe that. Too young for a kid, but now days, that's what happens. I have never been the partying type, I've always just wanted to be in a relationship and get my life together, I've never really been young. Anyways..my point is, I don't want to be older, but I wish people would treat me the way and age that I am. I am reliable, I am confident in what I'm going to accomplish. I am not a child, teenager anymore..I've been an adult a long time, I still have a lot to learn, but knowing that and accepting I have flaws makes me more grown up. I know life now, I know how to survive. I just wish people would treat me like that.
So here are some of the pictures I got of her, she is getting so big and so beautiful, it really makes me miss my little baby, but seeing who she is and who she is growing up to be is amazing, bittersweet life <3
No comments:
Post a Comment