Kaylin is all toddler right now.
She brings in her potty cup from her potty chair and not even knowing if it has anything in it she sets it on my bed, and as I finally notice what it is after staring at it out of the corner of my eye. I scream, and she laughs.I tell her to take it back in the bathroom, and she yells "no no no no!" and in the midst of my yelling a freaking out, I realize that all of this..is getting me nowhere. I automatically grab the potty cup and put it back in place in the bathroom...walk over and sit on my bed. "Kaylin...look at me" she is squirming and yelling "NO!" I pick up her hands and say " That's fine, I will wait right here until you look at me" and she tossing and turning with her head in the sheets. I finally see her peak up at me, her beautiful eyes pleading. "Kaylin, you can not take your potty cup out here, it's full of germs and we could get sick. All you need to do is dump it in the potty and put it back." of course she's asking "Why mommy..why..why why why?" and all I can think to say is.."Because I said so, and what mommy says..goes".
My thing is here, that before I lose it...I want to take more times to just take a breath, and talk to her. Of course she didn't know not to take it and set it on our bed, of course she didn't know. When I was young I would have been spanked for that. All I can say is...I need to remember, that yelling gets us absolutly nowhere. I know that's what i had to grow up with, but that's not who I have to be.
It seems like lately everything is "why" with her..." Why this, and why that". Most of the time she asks, it's hard because I don't really know how to explain the answer. Sometimes I make things up, sometimes I just tell her the truth, knowing she won't understand it. I know being a mom, doesn't mean you have to get everything right. All I can say is I'm learning, I'm trying to be all I can be for her, because she deserves it. I once had class with someone who said that we parent like our parents.
I don't believe that. I even took offense to it when she said it. If you try very hard, catch yourself, and learn about the things they did, and what you feel they didn't do the right way, then you can make yourself into who you need to be for your kids. I am my own...and I won't get everything right, and yes I may make some of the same choices as they did, but it doesn't make me like them. For I will show love with everything I do, and that's something that they couldn't do for me.
Every day I learn something new, and I am so blessed to have what I have.
She brings in her potty cup from her potty chair and not even knowing if it has anything in it she sets it on my bed, and as I finally notice what it is after staring at it out of the corner of my eye. I scream, and she laughs.I tell her to take it back in the bathroom, and she yells "no no no no!" and in the midst of my yelling a freaking out, I realize that all of this..is getting me nowhere. I automatically grab the potty cup and put it back in place in the bathroom...walk over and sit on my bed. "Kaylin...look at me" she is squirming and yelling "NO!" I pick up her hands and say " That's fine, I will wait right here until you look at me" and she tossing and turning with her head in the sheets. I finally see her peak up at me, her beautiful eyes pleading. "Kaylin, you can not take your potty cup out here, it's full of germs and we could get sick. All you need to do is dump it in the potty and put it back." of course she's asking "Why mommy..why..why why why?" and all I can think to say is.."Because I said so, and what mommy says..goes".
My thing is here, that before I lose it...I want to take more times to just take a breath, and talk to her. Of course she didn't know not to take it and set it on our bed, of course she didn't know. When I was young I would have been spanked for that. All I can say is...I need to remember, that yelling gets us absolutly nowhere. I know that's what i had to grow up with, but that's not who I have to be.
It seems like lately everything is "why" with her..." Why this, and why that". Most of the time she asks, it's hard because I don't really know how to explain the answer. Sometimes I make things up, sometimes I just tell her the truth, knowing she won't understand it. I know being a mom, doesn't mean you have to get everything right. All I can say is I'm learning, I'm trying to be all I can be for her, because she deserves it. I once had class with someone who said that we parent like our parents.
I don't believe that. I even took offense to it when she said it. If you try very hard, catch yourself, and learn about the things they did, and what you feel they didn't do the right way, then you can make yourself into who you need to be for your kids. I am my own...and I won't get everything right, and yes I may make some of the same choices as they did, but it doesn't make me like them. For I will show love with everything I do, and that's something that they couldn't do for me.
Every day I learn something new, and I am so blessed to have what I have.
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