love

So usually I write if I'm in a bad mood or if something dramatic happens. but this time, I figured i'd write because I am so freaking happy. I love Andrew so much. my heart feels warm and happy. I want to marry him and be with him forever. forever seems like an eternity but this is how i feel. I know we fight..and somehow it makes me mad enough to want to quit sometimes. but now i realize that ive just been wanting out because i was trying to run away. there are millions of people ..younger people who divorce, maybe someone cheated, maybe someone doesn't love the other, but all in all they don't try. You marry someone and you love them, if you didn't love them then why get married. if you think it for once, and feel it...then you can work it out. there have been millions of times where ive believed that i deserved better, or ive dreamed of something better, but working everything out, and talking through it all made us so much stronger. ive learned about him, and ive seen him at a low and seen him at his best. i love this man more than anything..losing him would break my soul. i love the daughter he gave me and yes...yes i want to be with him! forever! so this is how i feel...this is how i always feel when i think about it. i admit i have our bad times but i thank god for letting us love eachother and letting us become the best friend we've never had. now its a different feeling, like im happy....and now i want drama and i want to mess with everything. i just want this life to be exciting and meaningful and amazing. im ready for my life to begin!