That moment...when you finally realize that time doesn't stand still. The seasons come and go, and life may remain similar for years and years, but the people you grow to love with all of your heart, are growing older.
The person who taught you how to read and took the time for you to grow to love books, and the one who hummed a hymn every second of each day even if she was in the worst of moods. That person who gave you that knowing smile, that she knew you were up to something. That person who you go to in the middle of the night, who tucked you back into bed with a prayer and a kiss and didnt leave until your fast asleep. That wonderful person who was your best friend in life, who got you through most of the challenges of middle and high school. Who listened to every single story, and lesson, and problem you could ever go through, and actually listen. That person who bathed you and dressed you, and made sure you got tucked into clean sheets, every night and were warm and fed and loved. The one who was always around, even if you didn't know it. The one with stories, and happy memories, and the person who is the true meaning of love.
That person... is my grandma.
It's so hard to realize that through my whole life, even though I've really tried to prepare myself for it, and knew it was coming... it's just so hard to let her go.
It's so hard to keep living knowing that my best friend isn't going to be there anymore. My hero in every nightmare my mom or dad put me through as a child, and the one who gave me everything she had, and took so little in return. She is my hero....and always will be.
I pray God take her up to heaven, and let her flourish with everything shes lost with age. Let her pain stop and let the smile come back, that smile I remember as a little girl.
Grandma...you are absolutely everything to me...but when you know that being up in heaven is better than life here on earth for her...I realize that if I truly love her...I need to let her go.
I pray God helps me let her go, and be at peace with knowing she will finally be with our savior Jesus!
Help me through this Lord...please help me.
The person who taught you how to read and took the time for you to grow to love books, and the one who hummed a hymn every second of each day even if she was in the worst of moods. That person who gave you that knowing smile, that she knew you were up to something. That person who you go to in the middle of the night, who tucked you back into bed with a prayer and a kiss and didnt leave until your fast asleep. That wonderful person who was your best friend in life, who got you through most of the challenges of middle and high school. Who listened to every single story, and lesson, and problem you could ever go through, and actually listen. That person who bathed you and dressed you, and made sure you got tucked into clean sheets, every night and were warm and fed and loved. The one who was always around, even if you didn't know it. The one with stories, and happy memories, and the person who is the true meaning of love.
That person... is my grandma.
It's so hard to realize that through my whole life, even though I've really tried to prepare myself for it, and knew it was coming... it's just so hard to let her go.
It's so hard to keep living knowing that my best friend isn't going to be there anymore. My hero in every nightmare my mom or dad put me through as a child, and the one who gave me everything she had, and took so little in return. She is my hero....and always will be.
I pray God take her up to heaven, and let her flourish with everything shes lost with age. Let her pain stop and let the smile come back, that smile I remember as a little girl.
Grandma...you are absolutely everything to me...but when you know that being up in heaven is better than life here on earth for her...I realize that if I truly love her...I need to let her go.
I pray God helps me let her go, and be at peace with knowing she will finally be with our savior Jesus!
Help me through this Lord...please help me.
