How do I feel today?
A little sore, a little content, a little scared, but I am happy.
I want this new job but I know it's going to be hard. Yes the money will benefit our lives a little more than it is now, but it will be very gruesome, and crazy hard work. I want a good life, and I am tired of struggling just to make ends meet. I've always been one of those people that step up at the last minute. I am ready for this, and I want to make money for my baby, and for me and Andrew to be happy together. It breaks my heart to think about ever wanting to leave Andrew, but sometimes it gets hard. Is it because of the money or him and I working opposite of each other? It's hard, but life is always hard. We all have different problems, we all suffer through different things. I was in the hospital the other day and this woman told me everything that happened in her life. but she was happy besides the fact. Anyway, I believe if she can go through all of that and still believe that God is going to come through, and is blessing her, than that's what I need to do. I need to know that God is here, and he will make sure everything is okay. The bills will get paid, our lives will be calm and happy. Most of all, Kaylin will soar and blossom into a beautiful young girl. If I can give her a good life, and be her mentor and her friend and her mother, than I will know I've succeeded.
